Rebas' Adventure in Ozzieland

Hi, some fun things happened this month. I went on a hike in bush = "bush walk". I have continued to be involved at church and I started going to a Friday night service at YWAM. I love it, the worship is so alive and the people are great. I will go any time I can get a ride. It is down town at night and not a lot of safe bus availability. I have started looking for a permanent place to live and I think I found it. I pair of sisters have a house and one of them is getting married. The girl who I will be sharing with is named Melissa. She is a primary school teacher and I think she and I will get on well. I need to confirm with her (she didn't answer her phone last night). I will be staying at my current house sitting job for another 3 weeks Adan then probably going to David and Lorraine's for a few weeks. Sue (the other sister) is getting married around July 10th. I will move in after that. The house is furnished but the room is not so I will be hunting around for cheap ways to make it homey. Lorraine found me a bed and I am hoping to find a chair so I can read in my room if I want. The reason I haven't been writing in my blog much is that I am stressed out over my degree. I am supposed to be writing a proposal and I am having a lot of trouble with it. Please pray for me. Some days I don't know what to do and I get frustrated and some days I get stubborn and lazy and don't want to work. This is a huge personal challenge for me. This is not about study habits and stuff. It feels bigger than that. It is like a can see myself failing, and I just want to burying my head in the sand rather then try to stop failing. I am not going to make the deadline of June 28th. I don't know what that will mean for my degree. I am going to bring it up with my prof tomorrow at our meeting. I need your prayers; it comes down to this: I don't want to fail, but my sinful side doesn't want to do the work it will take to succeed, I need God and yet I am keeping Him at arms length because part of me doesn't want to do it His way. I know this is really personal and may not be appropriate for a blog, but I want to be honest. Please don't worry about me. I am still following God and I plan to keep trying. I will try to write every week like before and not avoid talking to you because I am ashamed. I know that isolation is not the answer. Know too, that I am talking to people here and sharing with them. I am not alone. Thank you so much. Reba